Certainly an update was due! So my PET scan is scheduled for the end of July, and it’s quite honestly all that I can think about, which sucks. They call it scanxiety, and it is a real thing. So, I’m going to need all the meds….all the days!
My hands have been shaking a ton lately, which is SUPER annoying. You should see what it looks like after I paint my nails. Thankfully God invented nail polish remover. I haven’t been feeling great over the past few days-more tired than normal, and nausea off and on. I also have been extra itchy all over, which is totally scary. Itchy skin was the only symptom I had before my last relapse. My skin is extra dry from the chemo, so it could just be that. It’s hard to tell, which also brings on the anxiety! So much anxiety, and not enough days to panic in!
In other news, happy Father’s Day, to all you dad’s out there!! And a special welcome to all the babies who have born/adopted this month!!! So happy for my friends. Yay for babies!!! (which by the way turn out to be waaaay easier than having a puppy, because at least babies wear diapers when they’re young).
Also for those of you shying away from the baby boom, here’s some good birth control stories for you: Yesterday Mack (who still needs a nap, but refuses a nap), SCREAMED and cried for OVER AN HOUR, because I wouldn’t let him bash his fist into the ipad when he was losing at a game. Then he also SCREAMED at the top of his lungs when I put him in the corner for throwing a ball directly into Sadie’s Face. Also, he lost his GD mind in Target because we didn’t buy him a toy. Oh ya, and last week he sat at the table and cried for over an hour because we wanted him to eat 4 green beans. FOUR! *sigh*. BUT…..every day he reminds me that he doesn’t want me to go to the hospital anymore, but if I do, he will visit me everyday. And at night when I tuck him in, and tell him that I love him, he says “Don’t worry mommy. I know you’ll always be with me, just in case.” And so, as usual, the good always outweighs the bad.
My goal for this week is to get my lazy ass on the elliptical. No excuses.
PS…Hopefully its not ominous in any way, but as I was typing this just now, a bird flew into our front picture window, and it now laying on the ground….dead. Shit. that’s rough.